Goodbye Note at 75: A Nightmare

She said:

It was a mistake
to find you, even though
you were a route to
relief at the time.

And we sat side-by-side
for those quiet years
while I longed
to have a body in love.

You are not my deepest love,
you know, the mysterious
love of my life. All the
years, passed, wasted with you

and there is this
wish come true
who makes me faint,
found late, but found.