On Seeing "Lust for Life"

(I'm hung up on the word "I."
It has meaning until the last seconds of life. I count down.
Then it is meaningless.)


"Theo," he says at the end.
"I want to go home."

But he's been saying
what he wants all his life.
He wants only to illustrate.
Pathos is in his voice
when he wants.


"Theo" he says
and we count down
10,9
"to go home"
8, 7. 6
"want"
5,4
"I" (aihhhhye, ich, yo)
3,2,1,
0
Then He's gone.