The Goodbye Hug Conspiracy

What kind of hug is this? I ask
as he thinks I should
grandly say goodbye.
Comeon, he says. I know that
interpersonal relations are not
your strong suit.

Embarrassed, I can only
come back with, well I am
reserved. But I know he is
making this hug a test. He comes
from a long line of testers.
He wants to see
if I know how to meet my obligations.

I have not met my obligations
all during my youthful years
he is waiting to see me fail again.
I have already lost
for not doing it naturally.
I get demerits
for poor self esteem.